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Where You are going is where I want to be… June 28, 2008

Posted by G in from the heart, mindless ramblings, truth.
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Many of you are aware of what has transpired for me over the past month due to circumstances four years ago. Many may know that I have felt quite stagnant and hopeless in many ways… probably brought on by my blinders or possible denial of reality and definitely my lack of faith. But I have decided to step out and trust. The week leading up to that moment was brutal… I was a bawling idiot most of Sunday the 15th, those of you I saw Sunday morning knew something was up, those of you at Tara Leigh’s show may have heard her mention it… but I was brought to a point of no return… the point of wanting to just flee. Of course that would solve nothing, so here I am.

So, I put it all out on the table… wrote a letter that tore me to pieces as I admitted by defeat. Once I truly came to terms with my inadequacy and self-reliance, the moment I brought the letters to the mailbox a weight was lifted. I no longer had this burden on my shoulders… I gave it up… through no doing of my own. I knew that God would take care of it… I knew that even though all of my issues are not solved… He has them… and they are dissapating one by one. Ever since that Wednesday I have had this smile that I can not wipe off my face. I have noticed it there and thought about people I pass and wonder what they are thinking looking at me. And the coolest part… is that provisions have been made, and I have felt more alive than I have in years. cliche… maybe…

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1. leanne - June 29, 2008

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