Be The Moon… Reflect The Son

I know, I know… I haven’t written anything in so long and I know there are a couple of you that really care about that. So, please forgive me. And yes… I will be writing a trip summary and you will be the first to know. It was an amazing trip.

I can not wipe the smile off my face today… that is all I am saying. Well… I will add that the U2 song is part of today’s theme song recipe with a hint of TLCs Calendars & Maps…

“she’s onto us… I guess Germaine’s not coming home…” NT

“If he can behave himself for another year we’ll get married… I am going to have a redneck wedding” LM

“push me on the swing” GM “I did” AL “Just for another sec” GM “I’ve given you lots of secs” AL

“I smoked whatever they gave me” JD

“I said ten words before I even spoke” GM

“Blow Out 2008″ NT

“They just pretend everything is all happy clappy” JM

On my way to Namibia again… join the journey by visiting the blog site.

so… I think I am going to make an effort to journal in Namibia this year… no, I am serious… yea, my thoughts on paper… where someone else might *gulp* read them. Big step… I know… we’ll see…

Many of you are aware of what has transpired for me over the past month due to circumstances four years ago. Many may know that I have felt quite stagnant and hopeless in many ways… probably brought on by my blinders or possible denial of reality and definitely my lack of faith. But I have decided to step out and trust. The week leading up to that moment was brutal… I was a bawling idiot most of Sunday the 15th, those of you I saw Sunday morning knew something was up, those of you at Tara Leigh’s show may have heard her mention it… but I was brought to a point of no return… the point of wanting to just flee. Of course that would solve nothing, so here I am.

So, I put it all out on the table… wrote a letter that tore me to pieces as I admitted by defeat. Once I truly came to terms with my inadequacy and self-reliance, the moment I brought the letters to the mailbox a weight was lifted. I no longer had this burden on my shoulders… I gave it up… through no doing of my own. I knew that God would take care of it… I knew that even though all of my issues are not solved… He has them… and they are dissapating one by one. Ever since that Wednesday I have had this smile that I can not wipe off my face. I have noticed it there and thought about people I pass and wonder what they are thinking looking at me. And the coolest part… is that provisions have been made, and I have felt more alive than I have in years. cliche… maybe…

so worth the time…

Waking up to a cardinal knocking on my window… (they are my absolute favorite)…

Going through the Dunkin Donuts Drive-Thru and having the person on the other end of the speaker ask me “May I interest you in a bottled water today??”  …say what???

“It’s okay Al, just flash your red badge & look cool…” ~KD

“Does she know where she parked the car? How long ago??” ~AD
“Nevermind” ~KD

“HOW CAN YOU FORGET THE KEYS?!?!?!?!? THEY ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING!!!!” ~MB

“I smiled in my mug shot too” ~KD

“We are going to die…” CH

“I am offcially scared” ~DD

“girls love shopping, it’s a stereo-type” ~DD
“yea, and I suppose your favorite foods are fried chicken & watermelon” ~GS

“I’ll be tom-tom… turn around when possible” ~CH